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[Like... really they're not. Chloe. You're a fellow gay, can you not smell the scent of queer wafting off this man? They're nice but they're way down near the bottom of the list of things he takes into account in a potential partner.
He doesn't volunteer what the issue really is. He doesn't know how to begin to unpack it, and a big part of him doesn't want to. He's already had one harrowing conversation with Chloe. They did it. It's done. They can check it off the list. He doesn't need another.
He does need another sip of this brandy though. Fight him.]
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Irrelevant though, because she's leaning in closer to the gear to squint at his words. What is the issue here? She wants to unpack this. It's moving day and all these boxes are gonna be empty.]
it's cute that u think i'm going to drop it just like that
sooo. go on.
whats the real issue here??
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He types and deletes an awful lot of sentences. Most of them are in the vein of this being a stupid conversation in the first place, of this not being her business, and while both those things are technically true they still don't feel right to say. The last time he confided in her it helped.
It's ridiculous that some of the best emotional advice he's got in a decades came from a teenager with blue hair but he's learned to stop judging people's worth based on his own assumptions.]
You've seen enough of me by this point to know I'm not the kind of man a young woman like her should be hitching her wagon to.
[That's not really it either, but it's the easier path to take and it's not wrong. There are so many good reasons that that would be a bad idea and all of them boil down to 'I'm Stanford Pines' in the end.]
How she hasn't realized that already I don't know, but our friendship isn't one I'm interested in jeopardizing.
[There it is. I mean, it's in Ford-ese, but it's there. I'm scared to lose her entirely.]
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Because you know what? That's stupid.
There are so many layers of stupid in that Shrek is sensing a disturbance in the force across the universe.]
so like
what kind of man are you doc?
do u really think your tragic backstory is supposed to make u unlovable??
that because u made mistakes and shit u just
dont deserve that happiness?
because that's fucking bullshit i'm gonna tell you that right now.
[Listen she. Takes this kind of shit seriously. As someone who's fallen in love multiple times and gone through some Really Difficult times with them, she thinks it's honestly stupid to just. Shut yourself off because of that.]
because if that's the case then well shit
lemme go break up with anna right now i guess.
because i'm fucked up too.
that's stupid.
you're being stupid.
we've all got issues.
that doesn't mean people can't love us.
or that we're not. idk. worthy of it.
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I don't disagree with you.
[All those pages in the Journal about never letting anyone tell you you weren't good enough, about how shutting out other people was foolish -- he wouldn't have written them if he hadn't meant them. The problem is he's already let Elsa in so far. The other shoe has to drop eventually, doesn't it?]
You misunderstand. It's not that I don't think I deserve happiness. But I have never made friends easily. In all my life I've had less than I could count on one hand, and now in the past year and a half I've somehow managed to make twice that and I barely even understand how I did it.
[Here it is. Finally, Stanford Pines being straight about something, a feat notoriously hard for him for a variety of reasons.]
I already fully expect to do something by accident to make that number decrease, because that's just what I tend to do. I'm not going to make it happen faster on purpose.
1/2 because that's how i roll
Just when she thinks she's onto something and she's got him in a corner a who new host of Problems arises and he's on his bullshit again. Helping people is difficult. She should quit while she's ahead.
But she's fucking Chloe Price and she doesn't just quit. Not when shit is this juicy. She's in this til the end. And also she just cares about him and wants to see him make the right decision.]
duuuude come on.
you can't seriously just. wait around waiting and expecting to see your friend count go down.
that's stupid.
you're obviously doing something right???
[Okay. Okay hold on.
Hold on. Different approach.]
let me just. ask you something.
boop
1/2
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[HE LITERALLY HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT IT UNTIL JUST THE FUCK NOW WHEN SOMEBODY HAD TO MAKE IT A THING and also he may be seventy but, emotionally, he's only just starting to not be a shitty teenager. Don't make him examine his own feelings, he's bad at it, he doesn't like doing it, it sucks. He values her friendship, that's all that matters, that should be enough.]
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She really wishes he hadn't fucked off to Ecruteak with her so she could just go bang on his door. Or have Munchies bash it down, honestly. The Jennies would understand. It's a crime of passion.
But then he's answering, and she's leaning back in her choice contemplating that for a moment.]
so basically yes
with a side of 'i don't know what the fuck i'm doing'
been there, done that.
it's terrifying
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On the other hand it would have been easier and safer to just go on comfortably considering her Just A Friend and now he's stuck with this instead, so that's great. It's Fiddleford all over again. It's going to be the same song and dance of convincing himself Just Friends is good enough and burying anything else studiously down deep enough that it won't cause problems. Because, y'know, he can't act on this. Ever.]
I haven't had good luck with romance in the past. You know that. If, theoretically, I did have feelings for her beyond the platonic you can't blame me for being reticent to act on them.
[It isn't that he thinks Elsa would ever, ever be capable of anything approaching what Bill put him through. It's that she'd be the first person since Bill, and the second ever in his life, that he gave himself over to that much.
You know, if he was in love with her, hypothetically.]
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[She won't elaborate. They both know what he's talking about. Bad Vibes. Mmmnope.]
look im not saying u gotta go out and like.
kiss her on the mouth or anything
but also dont close yourself off from the possibility because you're scared
you're 90 years old so grow a pair already
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[He absolutely would have made this an argument about that otherwise, so it's probably good Chloe thought to head him off.]
As for the rest, we'll see. I'll leave the door unlocked. Metaphorically.
[That's as good as he can do. It's going to have to be enough.]
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cool cool
proud of u, etc.
[She's. Honestly gonna leave it there, but after a few minutes pass, she realizes that she maybe, uh. Actually pushed him into a deep revelation and that this is probably a Lot for him.]
are you okay, btw?
this got deep
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I admit I would be feeling a lot better if this really had just been about my past romantic failures and not my current ones but, yes, for a given value of okay I'm fine.
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but for now ima leave u to your thoughts.
but munchies really misses u so think about popping in sometime soon so he can hug u and dank weed
k
bye