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[Well. He watches all that pour onto his screen and man, is he glad this is a text conversation because it's a lot. Time to really, really carefully choose his words here.]

I don't disagree with you.

[All those pages in the Journal about never letting anyone tell you you weren't good enough, about how shutting out other people was foolish -- he wouldn't have written them if he hadn't meant them. The problem is he's already let Elsa in so far. The other shoe has to drop eventually, doesn't it?]

You misunderstand. It's not that I don't think I deserve happiness. But I have never made friends easily. In all my life I've had less than I could count on one hand, and now in the past year and a half I've somehow managed to make twice that and I barely even understand how I did it.

[Here it is. Finally, Stanford Pines being straight about something, a feat notoriously hard for him for a variety of reasons.]

I already fully expect to do something by accident to make that number decrease, because that's just what I tend to do. I'm not going to make it happen faster on purpose.

Edited 2018-03-14 03:52 (UTC)

[God this is so frustrating.

Just when she thinks she's onto something and she's got him in a corner a who new host of Problems arises and he's on his bullshit again. Helping people is difficult. She should quit while she's ahead.

But she's fucking Chloe Price and she doesn't just quit. Not when shit is this juicy. She's in this til the end. And also she just cares about him and wants to see him make the right decision.]

duuuude come on.
you can't seriously just. wait around waiting and expecting to see your friend count go down.
that's stupid.
you're obviously doing something right???

[Okay. Okay hold on.

Hold on. Different approach.]

let me just. ask you something.

do you love her?

[Hey Chloe enjoy waiting like half an hour on read]

I don't know

[HE LITERALLY HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT IT UNTIL JUST THE FUCK NOW WHEN SOMEBODY HAD TO MAKE IT A THING and also he may be seventy but, emotionally, he's only just starting to not be a shitty teenager. Don't make him examine his own feelings, he's bad at it, he doesn't like doing it, it sucks. He values her friendship, that's all that matters, that should be enough.]

[Don't think she doesn't notice how long it takes him to reply. It takes every bit of willpower she has to not send him more texts. She decides to give him time. Like 45 minutes.

She really wishes he hadn't fucked off to Ecruteak with her so she could just go bang on his door. Or have Munchies bash it down, honestly. The Jennies would understand. It's a crime of passion.

But then he's answering, and she's leaning back in her choice contemplating that for a moment.]

so basically yes
with a side of 'i don't know what the fuck i'm doing'

been there, done that.
it's terrifying

[Mm. He really wants to keep trying to deny but, y'know, yeah. Yeah that's about it. Thank god someone in this conversation is good at reading his emotions, because he's not.

On the other hand it would have been easier and safer to just go on comfortably considering her Just A Friend and now he's stuck with this instead, so that's great. It's Fiddleford all over again. It's going to be the same song and dance of convincing himself Just Friends is good enough and burying anything else studiously down deep enough that it won't cause problems. Because, y'know, he can't act on this. Ever.]

I haven't had good luck with romance in the past. You know that. If, theoretically, I did have feelings for her beyond the platonic you can't blame me for being reticent to act on them.

[It isn't that he thinks Elsa would ever, ever be capable of anything approaching what Bill put him through. It's that she'd be the first person since Bill, and the second ever in his life, that he gave himself over to that much.

You know, if he was in love with her, hypothetically.]

i mean yeah i GUESS i can understand why.

[She won't elaborate. They both know what he's talking about. Bad Vibes. Mmmnope.]

look im not saying u gotta go out and like.
kiss her on the mouth or anything
but also dont close yourself off from the possibility because you're scared
you're 90 years old so grow a pair already

i know you're not actually 90 don't get crotchety

Good. So long as you know.

[He absolutely would have made this an argument about that otherwise, so it's probably good Chloe thought to head him off.]

As for the rest, we'll see. I'll leave the door unlocked. Metaphorically.

[That's as good as he can do. It's going to have to be enough.]

[Listen, she knows how he operates. It's just not an argument she wants to get into when he's having his character development.]

cool cool
proud of u, etc.

[She's. Honestly gonna leave it there, but after a few minutes pass, she realizes that she maybe, uh. Actually pushed him into a deep revelation and that this is probably a Lot for him.]

are you okay, btw?
this got deep

[Haha that's the funniest question anyone's ever asked him]

I admit I would be feeling a lot better if this really had just been about my past romantic failures and not my current ones but, yes, for a given value of okay I'm fine.

hey just think that whole seven eye thing is gonna make a gr8 conversation for next time
but for now ima leave u to your thoughts.

but munchies really misses u so think about popping in sometime soon so he can hug u and dank weed
k
bye

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