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[It's a little alarming to see her so torn up over this. A little alarming, but also a little validating. He's often been accused of brooding, of dwelling, of holding a grudge -- and that's all true, he won't deny it. But it's validating to see someone else react to this situation with the same swell of negative emotion he always feels when he thinks about it. Now for him it's mainly a familiar bitterness, one that he's learned to coexist with, but it's there all the same and he doesn't think it will ever entirely go away. His life could have been so much better if only...]

I wasn't kind and amazing back then.

[He can't let himself forget how much of the fault does rest on his shoulders. He has a predisposition toward cultivating a martyr complex, but he also is genuinely trying to be better, and part of being better is admitting to himself where he fucked up. It's a little bit of column A and a little bit of column B but it's helping, he thinks, in the end.]

We've reconciled, since. And I've had a very long time to learn from my mistakes. I would like to think I've become better.

[She lets out a small, sad chuckle at that. No, perhaps not, but he is now. That's the great thing about people- they change and they grow. If she had come from a different point in her life, she wouldn't have even had the balls to talk about any of this. Wouldn't be able to look him in the eye. If it had been before her powers were under control, she wouldn't even want to go outside for fear her powers might suddenly turn back on.

But she's better. Just like he's better.]

You are. I know I didn't know you back then, but you are. Because you can have this conversation with me and admit all of this. And because you feel bad about it. A bad person wouldn't feel bad about it and they certainly never would have reconciled. And you're better because... well, because-

[How does one say what she's trying to say without it sounding awkward?]

You make me feel better and happy, which... which not many people do. I- I'd like to think that means something.

[Hoo boy that was, uh, more personal than she meant to get, but. Well.]

[Haha oh wow that sure is like five whole emotions he's feeling right now. Don't have a heart attack, you're not ninety-two yet.]

I think it does. I've said it before here and I stand by it: there can be comfort in the familiar. In finding something in somewhere or someone else that you resonate with, for whatever reason.

[He found that with Dipper when he first returned to Earth. He found a situation he thought he knew, and he projected onto it with the force of an industrial-strength spotlight. He regrets that a little now if only because of the wedge he unknowingly drove between his niece and nephew, but that had never been his intent. He had only been so excited to finally connect with someone again. And in the same way he's glad he's able to connect with her, especially about something like this that he keeps so close to his chest. It's a relief to talk about it, even if it's territory he still has difficulty exploring.]

I don't often speak about this. But it comes more easily when I'm talking to you.

[If he's feeling five whole emotions, she's feeling seven feelings- maybe more. It's becoming really apparent from this conversation just how much Ford means to her. It's not something she... really considered before. Yes, he'd been a comforting presence, but she's realizing that it's more than that. When she talks to him, it feels like how it does when she talks to Anna. It's effortless, it comes naturally, it feels good.

And she cares about his feelings. She cares about what's going on in his life, she worries for him. She hasn't felt that way about anyone else aside from her sister. And it's all just happened without her even making a conscious decision.

It's almost a little overwhelming to consider. In a good way, but- wow.

When he says that, she can't help but smile, looking away because she feels her cheeks turning red. Boy, that's new. Now she feels kind of warm and she catches herself wishing Skadi would sneeze some snow in her face.]

Oh, thank you- that.. that means a lot to me.

[She trails off, trying get this darn blush to go away.]

If you think about it, our parents did one thing right- they brought us together.

[Elsa says it in a joking tone, but she's a little surprised at her own sarcasm- she's getting better at throwing shade towards her parents, it's kind of... cathartic. She finds herself giggling a little, as if a weight is lifting off her shoulders.]

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[The curiously serious expression on his face breaks into a surprised smile and he laughs. It's just a single heh, but it's a laugh all the same.]

You could say that, yes!

[Good. Let's step back just a little from all these emotions and into safer territory. They've done some nice sharing and now Ford needs a second. Baby steps, and all.]

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i forgot i used the sweatertown icon

oddly fitting given disco talk tbh

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