Mm. My father wasn't complicated. He was very straightforward, and things became much easier for me once I stopped trying to follow the path he wanted for me.

[Sometime around college. Getting out of the house was the best thing that ever happened to him, even if he didn't escape to the college he wanted. Would his father have approved of what he chose to spend his research grant on? Goodness no. But by that time he didn't care.]

It's not failing to make my father proud that I regret.